Jerry Timms

Then again, maybe this is not how it ends…maybe this is just where it gets interesting…

So I’ve had a month off and I told myself that I would only return to blogging if I really felt like I needed it. Which is funny because I think that statement itself actually identifies the reason why I stopped blogging in the first place; because I saw it as a weakness.

I started blogging because I was emotional, confused and upset. I continued blogging because it was fun, although my blog’s self-described identity as a form of therapy continued to loom over me. So when I felt like I didn’t need the therapy any longer there was this idea that I didn’t need the blog, and that it’s continued use actually made it ineffective. However what I should have realized is that things can persist in our lives while serving changing purposes.

And that purpose materialized in a new lesson, easily summed up in two words:
why not?

After I decided this afternoon to return to the blog, I started salivating at the idea of sinking my teeth into some new ideas and discussion. I missed this. And although I tried to keep myself busy with other evening activities, things just didn’t feel nearly the same, or as satisfying.

So I thought, why not go back to blogging since I enjoyed it so much? Well if you’re thinking it’s painfully obvious that we ought to do things we enjoy just for the sake of enjoying them, and you’re not sure why this is something I’ve only recently figured out…well, then you still don’t know me very well.

So there you go…false alarm. The blog isn’t over yet. In fact, it’s just starting to get interesting. Settle in you guys, I’ve got a few more things to say!

I need to tell you all that my life is going great. You might think otherwise from reading about all my complaints, but that’s just the nature of blogging. I blog because this is my therapy. It “gets things off my chest.” There are countless things about my life that I love. Countless! But I do not feel compelled to write about all of them. I just know that they’re great, and they don’t bother me or nag at me to resolve my feelings about them.

There are, on the other hand, things that bother me and nag at me to resolve my feelings about them. And this blog, that you either love, hate, or love to hate, is what I’m currently using to do that. It is what it is. If I only talked about things that are going great with my life, this would be called bragging – not blogging. If I decide to set up a Jerry Timms Brag, I’ll let you know.

This is also not the typical gay blog that is stuffed with images of naked models. That’s called soft core porn. Also not blogging.

That all being said, I’m gearing up for a fresh round of painful, critical, heart wrenching Jerry Timms style complaining.

And I feel great about it!